hook (kudasaibeats) Do you, have the time? I hope, you don't mind Can't I, see you again? And I'd like to be friends Scratch that, I’m tryna be your lover We’d been going strong since November and had a strong December January has been shaky and I’m tryna be the one you get the day for in February Gonna march through April to get you May flowers June comes around and you ask why’d July (you lie) back then? August is the time I’d look back on that sin And in September you’ll remember why I loved you to begin with Once my 18th comes around in October doubt will be a myth and This situation won’t be confusing like a hieroglyph I always loved you more that I could put into my words You make me happy I could ever be in your world When I think about you nothing could compare to you Cause nothing could make me come on the mic and spit the truth You the best I ever had and my one and only So I want you to understand how much you mean to me You’re the best girl I could ever ask for You do so much for me I couldn’t dare ask for more You’re the person I would take a bullet for You the one I’d want to be with every step of this life tour hook (kudasaibeats) Do you… have the time? I hope… you don't mind Can't I… see you again? And I'd like… to be friends Like I said I’m tryna be your lover till the day I die I wanna be the man you can lie on when you cry I wanna be there for you even if it’s from a screen I want you to understand how much you truly mean When I gave you my confession in the final minutes I felt like Jordan with the step back in the finals I really came through and made it, thought I was the man And like a kid in that crowd I could say I was your biggest fan When we met a year ago I had no idea how’d it happen Thought that would be our only talk, any future would be imagined But flash forward and we’re together talking about this And we realize it’s been in the making ever since Now all I wanna say is let me be your prince I want all the X and Os not to be in conflicts Cut pieces of me for your life, I think it’s worth the risks

If you can’t understand yourself then forget understanding others What’s the use of helping others while your mental suffers? I love when people speak on lessons they don’t even follow Tryna better everyone else when they themselves are hollow Like, what do you gain besides temporary relief? In the end you’ll just be wallowing in grief But that’s just me spewing out my belief This could mean as much as a discarded leaf I don’t know how some people move the way they do Leaving scorched earth behind when people need the grass too Do I really blame them going on a path of destruction When I’m sitting here swinging on the verge of eruption Cause it’s crazy how people close to you can just become strangers One day y’all be tight links the next day you a broken chain Ion know how I could go through that and not become insane Maybe it’s because I don’t have a way to find her Maybe it’s because I got problems I couldn’t explain Maybe it’s because I went missing in my brain But I know for sure I don’t understand people since I sure as hell can’t understand myself

I’m going through this world with a map of faded ink I’m at the point where I can’t see a train of thought or clearly think Eventually the day will come where I can’t stand to blink Cause my skin will have way too many tears to drink Shame on me for thinking that the well would remain dry All the sins against my name would never let me see the sky I’d expect to see the burning gates on the day I die Maybe then I won’t have to stress about goodbyes There’s no use to try and read between the faded lines I’d rather have my life told to people through the grapevine There’d be no difference if there’s people who feel how I feel and understand my deal I hate myself everything I’ve done before Bad or good, It doesn’t matter to me anymore If I can’t help but hurt myself and hurt the others Imma tell you loud and clear that I’m just not a good person Hopefully the faded ink won’t make you take this the wrong way My only goal with this is putting scattered thoughts on display So it won’t matter if tomorrow I decide to go away To sit upon a burning chair reserved for me to say Lately I been too comfortable talking about the destination That the journey’s been completely taken from consideration I’m going through this world with a map of faded ink Where every road leads down to exactly where you’d think

When she was there my life was better, that’s without a doubt Didn’t have to worry if the seed of hate was gonna sprout I was living well, enjoying life, there was no end in sight Until one day when I bout to leave, something ain’t feel right You could cut the tension with a knife but I was still oblivious It wasn’t till I got onto the bus till it got serious My mistakes finally caught up to me and the guilt had flooded in The devil on my shoulder got to write another sin When she was there I thought that I was living out my life inside a dream I had everything I wanted, every bit of self esteem Went out together taking pictures where the sun would gleam I had a smile plastered to my face no matter where I went Cause I was thinking we were held down in cement There was no chance of being in a bad faith argument The angel on my shoulder was so proud of all my choices Maybe life had finally showed me the right places I didn’t think it I’d make it long without her there I’m shocked I made it through another day on earth Cause in my eyes I’ve lost everything that made it worth Where did I go wrong? I couldn’t answer that But when she was there I wasn’t thinking how my face would look over a mat

(intro: kudasaibeats) I feel like I can't keep this time with you Tell me which colors live inside your truth I'm fine but feel helpless Don't try to be reckless To pass the time I wanna give all the time I have in me to you It sounds extremely reckless even though it’s true Since it’s all my fault I didn’t show my true colors Been so used to living life behind the veils That I’ve started to slash all of my supporting sails I drifted past your reach and left you stranded in the islands Past the point of getting through to you with sappy letters Delved into the void where life barely matters Slowly desensitizing all emotions And I cover it up by saying I’m just going through the motions What’s the use of being an open book when it’s filled with blank pages Might as well cast it into the burning flames As bitter as I get I’ll never be the one that blames I’m crying out in desperation, yet my mouth is closed Angels telling me this and that but yet I’m never moved Guess that’s proof from day one I never improved At this point I’m just begging for forgiveness Begging for a chance to do my best But in a void this the typa stuff to fall on deaf ears So much for saying “look out for your peers” I’m better off venting to my wall over some beers Maybe then I’ll find a valid resolution Talking with myself has never gave a good solution I say I find solace in solitude but hate being alone So please at least consider hitting me back over the phone