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Serotonin!

by thatguyjamari

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1.
[Verse 1: Thatguyjamari] When it's all said & done, I'm tryna be #1 The greatest under the sun while I'm still doing it for fun Yes, you heard me the greatest, the latest that'll be better than the rest I confess, I'm high off that confidence, it kicked in right for this song, a coincidence But in a sense I've lost my innocence At some point we all do and some turn to wickedness, becoming villainous, that's the last thing I need to succeed in this dark game, but we ain't the same Cut from a different cloth cuz y'all aint ready for the fame, y'all aint ready for a name You're phonies, never even owned a trophy weak in both knees, ignorance is a disease But to those who doubt these words pick up the mic, we'll fight with liquid swords over these awards, so come prepared don't be scared, this for the glory, it might get gorey but that's a different story [Verse 2: PRNCE]
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Runnin 02:31
i can't find the paper with the lyrics lol
3.
flowers 04:03
And 1 2 3 go (Flowers) Aren't gonna solve anything, you already did the verbal damage like a bumblebee it left a mighty sting and destroyed any prospect of a wedding ring (Flowers) May as well give em to the dead cause I ain't got a use for em, especially if they're an apology from you, can't ever ever ever forgive you, basically (Flowers) Are pretty useless in my eyes, it'll take a little something to prove it otherwise, a tiny miracle, a small belief in the spiritual, maybe what if (Flowers) Bloomed in a dark room, maybe then I'd put hope in your hopeless attempts to win me back Maybe I'll dislodge the knife you put in my back Unless you're petty enough to make me keep a blade drenched in my own blood, cause you're desensitized to the emotions that would pour from the same wound from which I bleed Kinda sucks, when I thought this could've been the only one I needed But alas I wrong It's the same old song at this point, when I'm winning in the end I always lose It's every single time cause life's not the one to pick and chose any of the (Flowers) Aren't gonna solve anything, you already did the verbal damage like a bumblebee it left a mighty sting and destroyed any prospect of a wedding ring (Flowers) May as well give em to the dead cause I ain't got a use for em, especially if they're an apology from you, can't ever ever ever forgive you, basically (Flowers) Are pretty useless in my eyes, it'll take a little something to prove it otherwise, a tiny miracle, a small belief in the spiritual, maybe what if (Flowers) Could really solve any of the problems in life? Maybe then I can operate peacefully, step out the usual line of light to go and see more (Flowers) That I might consider picking up and giving to someone that'll treat them well I don't want them to look like they were locked in a one dog cell And starved for a week like you did my (Flowers) I wouldn't wish that on the worst guy How bad that sounds is something I can only imply I can give you the details over some new and freshly picked (Flowers) I'll keep it brief cause I know how busy we all can be And I understand we have things to do and places to see You're curious and I know how much you love the (Flowers) From the summer of 2019 where it all started When my happiness and I chose to be parted Almost gave it all up when I lost my heart and my confidence once you stuck the knife in drawing out the blood Could've finger painted my demise with every bloody detail Was ready for the devil's letter in the mail That's why you can never be forgiven ms. anonymous Cause you destroyed the one thing I actually had going and prolly had it all planned out from the start, just my hypothesis And maybe it's a shot in the dark with a blindfold on but you miss every shot you don't take man, cmon (Flowers) Aren't gonna solve anything, you already did the verbal damage like a bumblebee it left a mighty sting and destroyed any prospect of a wedding ring (Flowers) May as well give em to the dead cause I ain't got a use for em, especially if they're an apology from you, can't ever ever ever forgive you, basically (Flowers) Are pretty useless in my eyes, it'll take a little something to prove it otherwise, a tiny miracle, a small belief in the spiritual, maybe what if (Flowers) Could really solve any of the problems in life? Maybe then I can operate peacefully, step out the usual line of light to go and see more
4.
[Verse 1: Thatguyjamari] I'm back with my man PRNCE and we two kings in the same territory So this competition is nothing less than mandatory Always looking for one ups like I'm starin up a staircase Cause it's by any means I don't end up in last place So imma strike suddenly like ghost did on Time Face Hit you with more points available on a mace I got an album in the works it'll be my best to date Just give it some time and I'll have it on your plate Can't be droppin all my stuff right out of the gate Now with my man PRNCE, I could do no wrong Every time we hop on wax it ends as a golden song This music business was destined to us all along When we set it all up we gon be comin out out strong Anybody in the way and we gon rip you like a bong And now my time is up, so to whoever it concerns or decides to engage You not even a producer you just a twitter page, yeah [Verse 2: PRNCE] you strike first, we fight back, no hooks, just uppercuts and slight jabs, enough to get you riled up, lettin light pass, see you was gettin gassed up, it got light fast, we be seein through the fog, it’s gold in the ear but you been hearin us wrong, can’t slide through the kingdom without hearin the song, it always be on, two kings bring dreams while the sirens alarm ya, feel the sweat drippin while we crawlin up on ya, the dawn is upon ya, double entendres as easy as that, told jam i got his back, it’s tha soul to the heart, can’t tear us apart, we rip you in half, see the commas and laugh, like, this was neva ya destiny you just pressed to see, a young black king doin betta things respectfully, watch ya mouf when you step to the gawds, you only seen half of what’s comin thus far
5.
C & A 01:17
This one for the OGs, imma call them C & A Cause seeing where they at, the spot I'm in is not where imma stay And imma let them know that I got stuff to say Gotta let them know that I'm not here to play Gotta let em know I'm catching catchin bodies on em any day and anyway I'm all for that friendly competition Cause it leads to healthy growth and wealthy premonition So best believe I'm always stocked with some ammunition Raining down bullets so I can push em to the best So that one day we gon be dressin for success And our crew will flat out be better than the rest Cause this is black business, imma rep it loud and proud We holdin so much talent that our floor is in the clouds Soon enough our work is gonna be so profound that opposition will sit and question whether it's allowed But I digress, cause that's just too much for y'all to digest So back to C & A, these the homies when it matters And this music stuff will be just beyond being chatters Cause these the ones to help me find the spark They the ones that shined the light in my dark
6.
Serotonin! 01:30
I bow my head to pray for a day I'm happy again I hope he's listening cause this the one time I ain't confessing a sin During our couple of moments Usually I get told not to lose my focus, and while 3/10 times it makes any sort of impact I leave the conversation knowing I'm not mentally in tact While part of me is thinking "boohoo, you letting the smallest things get to you" the only optimism is saying there's better days, just wait and see Every step I take forward I trip and fall further back And at this point the light at the end has faded to black Normally the protagonist finds a way to get back on track In this story, however, the problems continue to stack I only talk about this when I visit the man upstairs Cause who wants this negativity following them around? That's the purpose of the veil, to suppress it while I'm with others It's gotten to a point where we've become brothers from other mothers To be fair, I'm a pretty negative person, and what goes around comes around I just didn't think when it came back it'd be so profound
7.
Seventeen 02:42
[Verse 1] I look back ten years ago like it was yesterday Sitting in my sleeping bag, man those were better days Arrived in the sunshine state where I ain't know the ways Like being on the football team without knowing the plays But I really didn't care, why was I supposed to worry? It's not like I was tryna make it somewhere in a hurry It was just me and this slanted palm tree in the backyard I told him all my dreams for the future that he'd guard Cause early on my plan was to be a sports star First it was the pig skin, then it was the rock I was pretty good with the rock but piggy didn't go to far So that hog became bacon and my first self esteem knock While I found some promise on the courtside My shots from the corner changing whole tides A clearer vision started showing in my eyes It was the magic of the pen and the power of the paper Where my best abilities start to truly apply It was at that point in 2018 I became a real creator Made my first song about a friend's bond starting to taper We don't talk anymore but he's the reason imma rapper So shoutouts to him for letting me find my real passion Even if we've lost any types of our compassion These your dedicated bars [Verse 2] Talking in the present tense, past my point of innocence I made it through another year and gained a little confidence I faked it till I made it and nobody really questioned Means the veil was really working how I planned Cause the only way I show my pain is over instrumentals That's where the relief becomes incidental But I don't wanna spend the day dwelling on mistakes Because today it's the time to celebrate with cakes Since I lived another year with very little scrapes [Verse 3] I wanna say thanks to the people I appreciate Without y'all I wouldn't get to remediate So first and foremost shoutouts to mom and dad Even if we don't see eye to eye y'all the best help I've had Wouldn't be the same without y'all cause you really helped me stand tall Even while dad was out the city, y'all been my main support since leaving Mississippi And I wanna say thanks to the best friend I truly had Ever since 2017 we been on the same team Through the ups and downs even when we where mad We made it all the way to 2021 after blowing off steam
8.
I know I got something to say, even if I don't make it everything is gonna be okay Cause I got a message and you know imma let it fly So that leads me to a question that's about a certain Guy Since you think that you Lupe you made a whole Fiasco Bloodied up the whole entire scene, now how did that go? Lemme stop cause I know imma be the one to come out on top Might as well go ahead and get an honorary mop Don't even get the twitter fingers ready go ahead and stop With this out the way I gotta get some weight off my back Cause I really thought I could keep my spirits high at 17 One night alone with my thoughts, can't even let go of the demons of my past But I guess it helps knowing time is going by fast Still remember New Years like it was Halloween I could never tell you what happened in between Yet everyday I'm feeling like time is dragging on Maybe it's because of the monotonous routine
9.
Weatherman 01:30
It's the weatherman reporting live from the gutter And I'm here to let you know to make sure you have another person you can tell the secrets of the world Cause if you keep em all inside you'll end up with yo eyes twisted Yeah, weatherman reporting here first with a new forecast of absolute uncertainty I wish I knew the future like a simpson All I know for sure is I'm on a self made mission to keep improving for the future and leaving behind the past So when I'm where I wanna be I can have a blast But do take note of all those unknown circumstances Since it's well known once they show up you don't get second chances And most the time the ones that aren't so lucky go where the devil dances It's the weatherman thanking you for tuning into the show Hopefully you've built a little more on what you already know Hopefully you use this advice to arrive at where you're tryna go Hopefully you and everyone around you can succeed Hopefully you're careful about everything you read So god bless and goodnight
10.
[Verse 1] Struggling to hide problems I can't put a name on Coming home every day with the same song Getting to the point where it might as well be a sing-a-long Knowing that the past and my future will never get along The rose-tinted shades start to slowly fade away And the nightmares of my past become clear as day I keep it on the down low cause no one wanna hear that But dwelling on it on my own will make my heart go flat And it's times like this where I wish I could go back To a time my train was completely on track But if I did I wouldn't be the way I am today So I guess this set of tracks is where I'm gonna stay [Verse 2] We live in an era of of obsessing over clicks Getting instant dopamine over some pics I can't say I've never done it cause at this point who hasn't But I can say it's only been for the worst This technology has been a blessing and a curse Cause sometimes I'll be there laughing up a strom While otherwise it makes my head want to burst Usually it's easy keeping my composure and form But lately on my own my head becomes the storm Now what's gonna happen when I'm sitting in a dorm far away from home and it's just me, myself and I What happens when I eat to much emotional pie? I wonder. [Verse 3] Man, I really told you what would happen on Stepping Stones Drinking is your downfall, you gonna end up being bones How you drunk thinking you gon sit atop any thrones? Man you crazy. You better off face down in a puddle Maybe then you'll realize the extent of your struggle What happened to that promise you made after the first time? You swore to never get tipsy again like it was a crime Stepping Stones must've went in one ear and out the other Cause not that much later there you are downing another You were never one to commit to promises, let alone trust yourself You couldn't even drop something to improve your health Thinking you so far ahead of your age, you Mr. Wise Guy and I don't think a wise guy would drown away in brew Why does it even matter I'm not getting through to you Cause you'd imagine no one knows you better than you know yourself, but clearly whoever made that up ain't consider you Since you don't even be condoning yourself son How you getting told off by your own thoughts?
11.
51 01:58
As I sit in the cold patio surrounded by the rain I look back to the times I almost lost to the pain Cause in a one-on-one that guy is undefeated During may weather thinking the battle was completed 2019 me wasn't ready for the roller coaster that was summer Cause there'd be plenty things to happen that would be a bummer This the time where the seeds were initially planted to split the rock that held down our inner circle With some of those seeds coming from my other half at the time But she wouldn't be the only reason these seeds became a garden Since these quote on quote friends had hidden knives to sharpen And I won't pretend like I didn't have one sitting in my pocket But it's pointless anyway since someone came with a rocket He who must not be named could snake you any day Then he got me through the bushes and the ties are cut Normally ending things this way would be spiteful And I'd be lying if I said I had none, but it was still painful To see the person that you thought you knew completely transform but as a product of time and the environment I get it Sometimes you have no other option but conform But this conformation burned the strongest bridges that left us in a sense face down in ditches By now those seeds back in may had sprouted into flowers and completely cracked the rock we that we sat upon for hours I guess that date with destiny must've gone sour Cause today would've been a different place without her
12.
[Verse 1: Thatguyjamari] Got the drums banging behind me, call that the rolling thunder There he go off the the top again, yeah for another I got too many lines to use like I'm singing in the 80s Just a little powder and you get some smooth criminals Today the language of the industry is subluminals Slowly building a hive mind to take away individuals This an issue deeper than what'd you'd fit in three syllables Needs to be more back and forth than some hip muscles I spit more than a pissed cobra coming from the sand With a flow colder than MJ with the diamond hand and bars harder than a prison escape that was unplanned The whole package so crazy even the old folk would understand That the last thing I need is for the poetry to be canned [Verse 2: Matt Draugos] I done risen out the sands of egypt labored with my hands and feet talkin all that shit’ll get you blammed for free The phantom creeping through the lands of Giza with enchanted seeds i turn a man to ether turn that lead to gold Get a gram for free and multiply it sevenfold, set in stone, pass the ball and I dunk it Laid my roots in the dungeon they askin soup or the gumbo, rappers stupid and one note I pack the boom in the duffle in case these dudes wanna scuffle, say they poker face strong until I draw make em shuffle I talk to god in the summer and bear the frost in the winter rappers is dinner been a sinner since I looked up in that iron sky Take a sec and second look at who you idolize, pay attention to the ones who try to hide their eyes before they swipe your pride Touch down like a lightning strike I’m iron mike to these chicken nuggets ‘fore you fuck with me you need some bigger numbers [Verse 3: No God] Yo It’s No God, coming live from a space below Celsius Moving untraced like a VPN membership Cold like a frostbite mixed with the devil’s kiss Leave your soul froze in the ocean where the orcas live We’re no longer unseen, but I’ll keep you hidden Currents already wiped you out and left you bedridden Talking lame on my name, man it’s time to address it You’re a ghost in this music shit hope you get the message Toronto winters feed on stress and depression Evil fiends try to snatch dreams like Inception To rappers resting right now, pray for deliverance Have faith in No God, I’m where the blessings is
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Believe 01:57
Believe in where I'm goin cause I know it's past the stars The non-believers seeing red cause they stuck behind Mars One day imma be lookin back on those toy cars I shoved under the bed to pretend to be clean And when my moms caught me I thought it was to be mean One day imma reminisce bout the day I fought my cousin thinking it was bad blood when it really wasn't We was just bein kids within a disagreement And I hope he understood how much to me he meant Cause that's the brother from another and to me it's heaven sent One day imma laugh bout when I couldn't hold a cent Cause it'd be gone any time I caught that baker's scent One day imma be regretting all the times I ain't repent Cause keeping that unchecked was gonna turn me into brent But at this point I just accepted it so I could be content with how I roll and what I represent cause tryna be a different me is never gonna pay the rent Putting on that front is only gonna leave you bent while lyin bout your true feelings would be time misspent, yeah

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released January 7, 2022

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